MOST HORRIBLY BEAUTIFUL DAY February 16, 2010
Posted by onlycrap in Tapasya.Tags: Best ever V Day, On my knees, She says I'm sorry
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A silence then followed. In that brief moment of silence I imagined a lot of things. Though, my mind was sure of what the answer is going to be but my heart was thinking otherwise. My heart was somewhere praying to hear the most beautiful three letter word in the English language which every lover wants to hear in such situations. Unfortunately, I wasn’t lucky enough. All I got to hear was the five letter word “sorry”. I know that she truly meant it and there is absolutely nothing from her end. That “sorry” still reverberates clearly in my ears all the time and even when I am typing this dreadful yet wonderful experience.
I am not unhappy or sad or depressed on how things have turned out or how they have not worked out. Rather, I am truly happy that it has happened. Today, I can walk with me head held high telling what it feels like to love somebody more than anything else in this world. I was always aware of what the end is going to be even before it all started. So what if she doesn’t share this same feeling with me. That was never a condition that I put forth when I started liking her and nor do I expect things to work out in future. She is my princess and she will always be.
We then walked back to college. I thanked her for making my life both extremely happy and somewhat miserable at the same time. Strangely, I was filled with joy after telling her all that I ever wanted to say. This entire episode got me into an illusional high from where I hope I never come down. The feeling is yet to sink in and I am yet to realize the consequences of what transpired that day. Until then I want to enjoy the moment.
Thus, this is the short unfinished love story of the biggest loser in this world, ME.
I had written a poem once–it was called “A longing for things that can never be.’ This post captures the essence of that poem.
I don’t think non-reciprocation of feelings is a ‘losing’ thing. It is horribly painful–yes.As are all rejections.
But ‘loser’ is definitely not the right term.
Thank you for stopping by.
Best wishes
Preeti
no words. Jus no words. U get some situations in life where u jus have to keep quiet. I am feelin the same thing now. And i dont want to tel u those same things which i hv told u so many times. . . . .and i also know that u dont want it either. But like preeti said ur not a loser certainly
agree with officer… u r not a loser mate.. was stunned by the post.. speechless…awestruck…. dont lose heart!!!
@ Officer & Coffee: I know that I’m not alone but I’m a new entrtant to this dubious category
Anyways, thanks for your words!! Appreciate it.
@ Preeti: Your poem made a wonderful read and as have included it as a post.
I guess now I don’t feel much like a loser afterall.